INAF Day/ Org Ramblings
Hooray! No classes today… sorta. We still had to go to school for our NSTP Team Building during the afternoon, however all classes were canceled. I went to school early because my sister had Jeep (something like NSTP but for Juniors), and waited for Fee to finish his session so I could lend him my Bamboo Tablet. Funny how I’m lending him, his (and other friends’) gift to me on my 18th birthday. :DTeam Building was more enjoyable than expected. I still felt out of place because I’m the only non-org/new recruit in the block, but they didn’t ignore me or make me feel out of place. That’s a good sign. I was so scared about not fitting in and had started to regret not getting a load rev, but I stuck to my decision for the kids and for the babies I’ll end up taking care of. It’s really hard for me to make new friends, and I usually lose interest in the end because of my lack of social skills. I really can’t stay in an org where I have no close friends that I could relate too. However, I really like kids and babies and this is what drives me to continue working hard to fit in Tugon. I’m hoping that luck will help me be active in Tugon, and my two other orgs APART and FAS (two unaccredited art orgs). The INAF sessions was horrible though. I was seated near the speakers and the guy emcee spoke really really loud that my ears were ringing. The presentations were so-so (except for one which I thought to be funny), although I’m proud of my block mates Vince (my son/daughter), and Theia (my sister) for doing a good job. (GO CADS!) I sat with some of my block mates instead of my ‘org-mates’/ NSTP block because I was more comfortable with them, and also they were seated at a cooler (in terms of temperature) place. I really wanted to join some other orgs but I guess… well… it’s too late. I wish I had joined Celadon, just for the switch with La Salle (AdMU won!!! w007!!!) so I could meet up with my barkada mates. I wished I had joined CADS Production, or perhaps AMP production, or some other production crew.I sorta wished I backed out of Tugon and had my NSTP changed because it’s really such a hassle being a newbie and not having the experience my block mates have. On top of that, I’m the only one who’s unsure of what’s going on since it’s a first for me. As of now, I have Tugon both on Monday mornings and on Saturday afternoons. I don’t really mind working extra actually… I just wish I had a friend with me… then I would not think about backing out. I like the Tugon-ers. They’re nice to me. I’m so confused and just waiting it out, hoping to gain close friends so that my Tugon experience will become happier and so I wouldn’t think this way.
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